bad thing run away.....

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still remember that my MYOB exam...

yesterday when teacher tell us that the exam paper...

start from that i already know that my award is gone...

even that i do well in my exam...

even that i so hardworking to do that...

but award is gone then will not come back anymore...

at the class madam tang is compliment her...

say her rich, pretty, nice girl and good knowledge...

damn...

compliment her ???

i want to let you know you are wrong...

i know what girl she is...

i cannt say that she is don't have good knowledge...

but so what ??

i also can do that...

quite a stupid like a toys...

let people see a nice show...

but that already pass and nothing can let me remenber anymore...

even that everyday i also will saw her...

but just like nothing...

maybe i already can put her down...

haha...

my software ram very fast...

today at school see her walk together with a guy from my class...

i thought i will very pain when i see that...

but actually is not...

no feeling anymore when i see that...

just a pass people in my life...

no need so care on that...

have a bad news come to me...

i hope that this will not happening...

but this is true and cannt change it anymore...

friends...

in our life will have many people come in and gone out...

the improtant thing is you happy...

our life is happy ourself...

is not for other people...

treasure...

is just suit to know how to love people...

is not suit to who don't know how to love people...

in a relationship of love...

if both of you know how to treasure each other and really love each other...

that is really can call love...

but if just a single side to give and other side to accept...

what relationship is this ???

love is quite hard to learn it...

friends...

if he really not love you anymore just leave he gone...

leave he be the pass tense...

we all still will beside you...

and we wouldn't leave you alone and leave you out...

i know that is very pain in your heart...

this feeling i try before but leave it pass...

after that you need to do is let him regret...

he don't want you not mean that no other people want you...

don't let yourself in a small area but in this colourful world still have great guy...

and better then him...

win zai...

so time promise is cant success not mean that is your mistake...

this time you make your promise so high...

that is really so hard to get that...

i try to do well and make myself hardworking also cannt hit the target...

so don't put it in your heart...

cause we all best friends also know that you already try your best...

and in our heart you and me already get the good award...

unchangeable relationship...

unforgetable memory...

no sadness friendship life...

this is more valuable then get that...

that is just a medal...

i know that many people hope that can get that...

but how many people really can get that ???

will be so less...

why need to let yourself many presure ???

just make it normal...

hope that all my best friends will happy everyday...

and no more bad thing will happen...

i not hope that want see that again...

in our group just leave 1 in relationship...

not hope that see her cry...

really not hope that...

that all for today

...thank for reading...

happy.....

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last thursday just finish my MYOB exam...

damn scare when i face that paper...

but when i open it...

OMG...

is too easy then pass year...

luckyly i still can finish it in one and a half hours...

before exam i just revision 2 pass year paper...

for me that is enough to get D in my exam...

but when i say that to my friends sure they will say me...

when finish de paper...

teacher tell us that the paper have mistake inside...

damn sad...

i already pass up the paper cann't redo...

my target is break...

so hope can get award in this exam...

but now i know that this is impossible...

so just leave it on...

no need to think more and more...

luckyly this few days have my best friend-win zai...

he always chat with when i arrive school adn recess time...

cause this few time sure i will very boring...

no one can chat with me...

he told me that he is same with me...

in class no one can chat with him...

something is happening in between he and his friends...

maybe sometime we will know a new friends that just can be normal friends...

so that no need so care on this relationship...

when we know someone is really can be best friends...

then we need to treasure this relationship...

because this is not easy to find...

relationship for friends can be longger then relationship for love...

but if that is your MR/MS Right mean that...

this relationship is equal to friends relationship...

that is forever...

hope win zai can find his MS Right soon...

and my MS Right come early...

haha...

quite funny that last night i call win zai go P.M...

because that is 1st time i call them out...

normally is they call me go out drink tea or eat...

win zai so surprice that i do that...

we 4 people go P.M...

me, win zai, chai foong and crystal...

crystal so pretty last night...

she ask me what changing on her...

sure i know what changing on her...

but last night both of us so less chatting...

she and chai foong like long time didn't see...

many topic to talk...

so that i just can chat with win zai...

but me and win zai also have many topic to talk...

win zai told me something about crystal...

that time i really have a bit pain in my heart...

but that so fast gone...

cause we are best friends now...

many thing also start from friends...

that not mean that already no chance on her...

but hope that i will not be with her...

because i not hope that see her cry...

i just want her happy...

someone say that...

'love is not really need have her, if see her is happy then is enough'

so that i just hope that see with happy...

伤心了，还有我的关怀

想哭了，还有我的肩膀

受伤了，还有我的怀抱

失望了，还有我的存在

只要你需要，我能为你做的，我一定办到

...that all for today...

thank for reading

good day....

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just come back from outside...

go watch a funny movie with my friends...

win zai, chai foong, and kar mun...

actually woohoo is a quite good movie made in malaysia...

full of the style in malaysia...

damn funny...

start from last night i'm waiting the time pass faster...

just because watch a movie with my new friends...

finally i wait that...

when we go after school...

we chat in win zai's car...

quite noisy inside...

we 4 people go watch this movie but in the car look like just have 3 people...

cause kar mum so less talking in the car...

if i didn't look behind i really will forget she is in the car...

just me and chai foong talking in car...

because win zai need driving car...

haha...

he is our driver that time...

when we arrive there start to finding parking...

go here go there...

finally find 1 parking near the cinema...

then we walk to the cinema there is just 230pm...

still have 15min to watch our movie...

this time have a group of guy is coming...

they is chai foong friends...

damn they watch the same movie with us in the same room...

quite funny...

time to watch movie...

then we buy a set of popcorn and soft drink...

chai foong favor is popcorn...

now i only know that...

start the movie we is start laughing...

really quite funny...

but also very touch on some happen...

me sit with win zai and chai foong...

the time if is bee sit beside me i will more happy...

boring...

no chatting with chai foong when watching movie...

luckyly still have win zai chat with me...

but i more hope that sit beside me is her...

when almost finish the movie...

she is sms me...

i know she is finish her exam...

before exam we have sms this morning...

she tell me that she very scare exam...

but i told her don't scare in exam...

must enjoy in her exam...

if we are scare in our exam then sure we cann't do well...

just make it normal when face exam...

luckyly she do well in her exam...

and i know that she can do it well and well...

don't know why really very miss her and want to see her now...

hope that she can come out from my eyes now...

haha...

but i know that this is improssible...

so that i just can see her on facebook...

win zai and chai foong say that next saturday want to go kl buy clothes...

damn bad...

they call her go and tell me she have go...

i know that they is making a chance for me...

so thank win zai and chai foong...

...that all for today...

thank for reading

quite boring day

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actually want to forget someone is really very hard...

until now i still cann't forget her clearly...

even that now have 1 girl make me comfortable when talking with her...

but sometime i still very see her come out from my brain...

even that i force myself do not miss her anymore...

today i stay at school wait my sister...

at the time i didn't saw her...

very happy by today...

chat many thing my friends at class...

because teacher is miss the 2 period class...

when the bell is ring...

time to back home...

but i need stay at school wait my sister...

i don't saw her for whole day at school...

but when we back home...

my dad tell me have 1 car behind us...

he say that is her...

that time i saw her...

my heart pain again...

i thinking back what she tell me before and she is breaking her promises...

too believe 1 people is not the good thing...

because they will use this and bluff you...

inside 'believe' that is a lie...

start from that i learn to just believe myself and my best friends...

everytime i use my heart to know new friends...

but they is not my real friends...

when they have any happen need your help then they will find you...

this is not call a real friends...

luakyly i know win zai, chai foong, anson, MK, Sharon, and crystal...

i konw that they is really can change their heart with you...

we can share all happyness, sadness, and so on...

when one of us is feel unhappy...

sure will find each other to have a chat...

after that will feel happy...

here need to thank foong intro crystal to me...

because crystal is the girl style of i like...

quite a good girl...

don't know why when the 1st time i saw her...

the feeling is very special...

something like u feel is she...

if i know her early sure i will not chase that girl...

even that something crystal is lose...

but the most improtant that normal is crystal more good then her...

nice, love cooking, treat boyfriend and friends good...

all of this is already enough...

if have a chance...

i will treat her good as i can...

if have chance...

i will not let her cry...

if have chance...

i will let her feel that she is happy then before...

all of this only need a chance...

that all for today

...thank for reading...

quite a sad day...

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just come back from old town with friends...

my friend is asking to help her in MYOB exam...

so that just now i go out wif her...

help her do some revision to get higher mark...

just now she let me know her internal exam mark...

damn just can get pass...

when i see that i also scare...

want from that to get A maybe is improssible...

but i will try my best to help her...

just because i promise want help her to get higher mark at external exam...

so that i teach her all the improtant thing in that...

i want her to improve her speeh...

she is really very slow on that...

quite a hard teaching on that...

what she is learning before but she didn't use it...

so i scold her when i'm teaching her...

hehe...

but just like play a joke...

just a simply exam about that...

maybe for her is quite difficult...

hope her can do more revision before exam and get good result on that...

when i'm teaching my friend...

have 2 friends is on the ways coming...

1 is i know but the guy i dont know...

so we starting chat...

actually the guy is my friend know he when that time they go count down...

so that i just heard what they are chatting at there...

quite a boring...

by the time i saw a girl come in my eyes...

i know that is she...

start from that when i saw her...

my heart is very pain...

not pain because of what...

just because i think back what she tell me...

is she make me feel like in heaven...

but also is she make me feel like go to hell...

everytime when i stop think on her...

she also will come out and let me saw her...

why you want to let me remember you ???

why cann't let me forget you ??

is you bring me happy...

but also is you make me suffer now...

please let me go and let me forget you...

some people say that...

many feeling is just a pass feeling...

when you is quite love a people...

they will let you learn that how to treat a people good...

even that this will make you suffer...

but everytime we learn...

we also need to get hurt, get scold, then only we will do well...

people say that...

when you are miss something...

then only you will treasure it...

but when you want to treasure it that is very late...

because it already gone and will not come back anymore...

this is let us to learn when we have the thing on time...

we need to treasure it...

dont wait until it pass and miss...

then only you treasure it...

That Is Too Late...

hope that all the people who reading my blog...

Will Treasure all the thing beside you...

Friends, Love, Family, and so on...

...that all for today...

thank for reading

...good night...

4th days without her....

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quite a boring day at school...

today i late to school...

leave my friends edwin alone at school...

i know that this few days his friends so less to find him chat...

and this few days foong already go singapore...

nobody chat with him...

foong go singapore...

at school really quite boring...

nobody can like foong...

today i got st period...

wakaka...

see the teacher just like see foong at school...

damn miss foong now...

why i will very miss her ???

maybe i...

haha...

because foong is the best friends of me n edwin...

sure will very miss her...

foong ah so miss you...

miss the time you beside me...

today is crystal birthday...

last night when i sms her...

she tell me must wait until 12am only can sleep...

damn bad...

she want to say happy birthday to her at the time...

but she reply me so late...

miss her so much...

she is my next target...

wakaka...

what a pretty girl she is...

but i heard that she will go singapore after she is graduate...

that time we sure cann't go out drink tea together...

can i ask her to stay at here for me ??

i think she wouldn't do that...

because who am i ???

not her boyfriend also...

when she go out...

just leave me, edwin and foong at here...

that sharon damn busy...

want to find her out i think is the most hard...

last night i stay at school to wait my sister...

she is finish school at 2.30pm same like my sister...

when i finish school i saw her...

damn pain in my heart...

althought i really saw her...

but i force myself to see other side...

when my sister is finish school...

she is coming out from her class...

and i'm sitting outside her class...

that time i saw the guy come back to school and wait her finish school...

when i want to walk out with my sister...

i see the guy help her take the book...

that time my heart really very pain...

and i know that now all the chaser from my class will very happy...

but just like foong say that...

she is not suit to me anymore...

still remember the time with her...

really very happy...

today see the guy in class very happy...

maybe they is already start...

hope they will happy everyday...

now i know all the thing is going on...

and how is it going on...

i wouldn't feel angry...

'love her not mean that i need have her,

when her happy then this is the most improtant thing,

weather she not mind'

...that all for today...

thank for reading

very suffer now

2nd day without her....

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today wake late...

normally will wake at 7am...

but today i wake at 7.20am...

if before i sure will wake at 7am to prepare all my thing...

just because i need wake her up at 7.20am...

everyday i oso do that...

but now no need to do that...

now just like lose out something...

because i do that about few month...

suddenly stop that will feel like something missing...

but i need to adapt this again...

cause i wouldn't do that anymore and forever...

but this few days i still looking on my phone...

i force myself don't look on that but cann't...

soon all for this will gone...

because new year, new life, new people, and new wishlist...

want to help my daddy make cookies...

the traditional chinese cookies...

so yummy...

everytime i make i also will eat and eat and eat beside making...

haha...

decided want have a party night at chinese new year at my house or not...

can invite my new friends come also...

i think that will be very funny...

last year just have a great party night at my house...

see weather this year want to make or not...

damn bad...

everyday go to school also will saw her...

i try to force myself don't see her...

but she still will come out in front of my eyes...

i know that i can forget her as soon as possible...

sometime think why i will like her...

and why i love her like that...

erm...

actually i don't know why also...

so funny right ??

like someone is without any reason...

just because like and love is just a feeling...

feeling is the most hard we can control it...

foong...

intro some good girls friend to me please...

haha...

...that all for today...

thank for reading